The heart-pounding territory of wanting

On Motherhood: “This is it,” you said. “And you’re missing it.”

When I think of these last nine months with you I think about change. How much you’ve grown — how sometimes your face wears the expressions of adulthood, how your hands guide you in your explorations with trust and confidence, how you no longer need me to reach the books on the high shelf. But also, I think about how much you’ve changed me. How you’ve b…