I want you to be happy here

On Motherhood: What if it’s less about the ocean, less about home?

When I think of you turning seven months I think about the sea. How we drove over four hours to introduce you to the ocean. We buckled you into the car seat that you hate and I sat in the back with you, trying to distract you from the time. 

I teetered between joy and guilt the entire drive to the coast. Joy because I couldn’t wait to see your face when …